Stress Reducing Tricks!

In an effort to reduce my stress level I've started doing yoga again. Someday I want to be able to do this!!

How awesome would that be!?

What Says Me?

That was a question a professor asked us for our self promotional assignment. That question has haunted me since that night. I started my daily creative journal because of that question. I've been obsessively looking at design website/blogs to get inspiration. I even created this blog. I feel as though I'm busting my butt to "find myself" and to find "my style" and I'm failing. That scares me. "Finding myself" should be one of the easiest things I ever do and it's beginning to be the most difficult challenges I've given myself. I even started to sample different styles of clothing. I tried trendy (plaid) which my husband now thinks I look cute in. I've tried dressed up, I'm done with the "college" sweatshirt and jeans look. But I have gotten some success with the hippy/70's/bohemian look. I think I'm most comfortable in that and I feel that is mostly me. But as far as design. I'm lost! I'm going to start senior project and I have no idea how to promote myself. I have until the end of this semester (a goal I set for myself). I want to be able to design something and people are able to tell that was designed by me. Maybe it's a good quality that I don't have one set style. I think that shows weakness.


I'm beginning to feel the stress of this semester. 3 more months. 3 more months. 3 more months.

True Grace

This is a photo of my wonderful and truly beautiful Grandma.

Everyone says their Grandma is wonderful, but she really was wonderful. She was a women who was the ultimate example of grace, forgiveness, and love. She was there for me when my parents got a divorce with I was 11. She was there to clean up my cut leg from a bike accident. She was there to help my mom buy us new school clothes when she couldn't afford them. She was there for me when I made my first and second formal dresses. She was there when I needed a place to live. They said she wouldn't make it to our wedding in June 2008. She was there.

She passed away September 24th 2009.

waiting DOES pay off!

We've seen 10 houses in person and countless houses online. Only one caught our attention. We put an offer on a house Monday night. Counter offers back and fourth, long story short, they accepted our offer last night at 7:10 p.m!

Our relator says we have 80% of the work done! Now we just have to have an inspection, actually get the loan (we've been pre-approved, just need the money!), and signing ALL the dotted lines! The sellers want to live in the house 30 days after closing so they can find another house. If everything goes as expected we will officially be Homeowners on March 26th and move in (aprox.) April 25th, which is 5 days before our apartment lease is up! Talk about perfect timing (if everything goes as planned)!!

I now understand why people don't move every year. This process has been a bit stressful for both of us. Tyler has done A LOT of the work so he deserves most of the credit. He is much better at this stuff than me, I really am blessed!

Thanks for reading this, I will keep everyone posted as we hear more news.

Waiting...

...and not so patiently. My stomach is in knots. We put an offer on our very first home today. I'm very excited but at the same time extremely nervous. I'm nervous because:

1) Huge financial responsibility
2) They could counter with something we're not willing to accept
3) If 2 happens then we are back at square one
4) CHANGE!
5) I feel old

Accomplishments, are good to talk about...

I haven't posted in a while. To be honest I really haven't done a lot of design work this semester so I don't feel compelled to post assignments, because...I don't have any. I have been keeping up with other blogs and websites, so I have tons of inspiration just nothing to prove all of my "research." I am still insecure with my daily journaling which I totally slacked this weekend. I forgot two nights in a row! This entry is taking me way out of my comfort zone and I will show you my progress so far. But before I do I want to thank a dear friend of mine. Ana :) She e-mailed me today and said "BTW You need to post something on your Blog...." She totally called me out! Which is why I think she is awesome! Definitely thankful to have her in my life :)

"Snowball J" this is when I started to do my own thing with my letters. The pressure was off and I could do whatever!



"If I don't get my dream job (whatever that is...) I'll eXplode!"



"Because the wind is high it blows my mind"-"Because" by the Beatles


I like this one because experience is spelled experienec. If you know me you know I'm a poor speller. But I learn from practice. Which is what this quote is all about. I sure make mistakes, but that's how I learn. That's how everyone learns. Experience and mistakes. They go hand in hand.


That is what my husband told me last night. He filled up my "love tank." He let me know he needed me and it made me feel 100% full of love from him. What a wonderful feeling to have :)

One last photo to post. This will explain my title. Today I went to the VA Hospital in Fort Wayne. I went to cover a News Conference for a photographer at IPFW (only the second event I've covered). A piece of art I created for this hospital was there. I didn't know it was going to be at that hospital so I was excited when I turned the corner to see my piece at the end of the hall. It was the first one on the left right before the door to the auditorium. Thinking about that moment is like a movie for me. Everything is in slow motion and I'm in "awe." I was really excited to photograph an event that had so many dignitaries there. The Chancellor, Dean and Chair from the VCD department at IPFW were there, and Congressman Mark Souder came to "unveil" the artwork. That was another "movie moment for me" being in a room full of important people. Those are my favorite memories. The ones that slow down and nothing else matters. I got the privilage to have my photo taken with the Chair from the VCD department Haig David-West by my art work. He heard me ask someone to photograph me next to my work and said let me stand with you. My experience today felt so surreal. This event was not for me at all. This event was to "dedicate" the student artwork to the Veterans who fought for our freedom.



A very proud moment in my life. I am not bragging, I'm simply sharing an experience that I will always remember.